Doubt. That 2nd-guessing. Wondering how it could have played out differently. Reviewing the memory over and over and wishing it were different. And, the loud voice that keeps us from taking that next step forward, asking the big question, sharing what’s real.
And/or Confusion. She’s tricky this one. She loves to keep us in “we need more info” mode, or “I’m not sure what to do next” place or “I just wish I had clarity on what is the right decision for me now” space. Been there. A lot.
And, when paired together? They activate each other. Like Synergy, but gone awry. It can get ugly.
Both of these shadow selves are present for me this week. (and are pretty familiar each time I reach an edge, a growth phase or a new chapter of my life.) They can look different, but just like someone who changes their hair color, I can recognize them. The sneaky part is that they like to appear quietly, silently hijacking my momentum, shifting gears into low (or Park) until I notice that I’m not going anywhere! I’m stalled. And then it’s a bit late.
So, this week, my amazing business coach and I were talking about them. (I’ve actually named them Debbie Doubter and Connie Confusion) and my desire to fire them, release them, remove them or heal them. The suggestion I received was to “promote” them. What????
Promoting them to come from their Gift side, their flip persona of Inquiry and Illumination felt RIGHT. Perfect. And timely. Allowing them to still be valuable and necessary parts of me and to shine from their Gifts allows me to move into bringing them forward in my life in all ways, always.
The brilliant outcome of this promotion ceremony is the more cohesive way of recognizing when they are showing up. To bring forth their gifts in each interaction and then shine from within their highest spiritual teachings of Truth and Illumination! And how these already show up as guiding values and principles for me in my life and work? Divine guidance indeed!
So let’s dive in. These are real show-stoppers and I don’t know about you, but I’m ready to get on with the Show!
Years ago this book arrived in a gift bag with several other items from a friend who saw me better than I saw myself.
I devoured it.
Each word sang to me, woke me up, brought a resonance to my soul that has long been asleep.
And, it seems to call to me each time I need to wake up again.
Are you waking up? If so, it can be daunting. The lights seem so bright, the sounds too loud. The activity too busy. And, it makes us want to dive back into our covers and go back to sleep.
Yet, these times are calling us out of slumber. Whether courageous and wanting to risk, grow and change or not, we are unable to find the comfort in slumber we used to.
We have been preparing for this. We know that, on some level, we are ready. And, here is my invitation to you. Listen in and stay awake. We’ve been holding it together for too long.
Authentic Life, what is it?
More importantly, Why did I agree to it? And, have the strong nudge to teach it, share it, model it for others?
Here I am, sitting with a boatload of ideas, plans and projects, and I’m playing this game with myself. Authentic Life is about eating, living, leading, loving from our truth, our wholeness, our realness. NOT what we always want others to see.
As I prepare to invite friends and neighbors over to my home for class on Cleaning without Chemicals, and a few workshops on using Essential Oils for a healthy, holistic support system for change and emotional wellness, I’m frozen. Why?
I’m worried I’ll be a bother. People are busy. They don’t want to add something else to their calendar.
OR, do they? What if my discomfort is not about them. It’s my stuff. Managing my fear of what they will think. Funny, on Facebook, I’m not hiding as much as I do in person. When it comes to reaching out via phone or text.
What if I’m not inviting them and they WANT to learn, grow, become more aligned with who they want to become as Authentic Leaders who lead with Grace and Power?
What if my sharing of this information would help heal them and their families by incorporating a new paradigm of seeing how to live with less chemicals in their bodies, homes, lives? What if they want to make a difference for our planet?
I’m getting on the phone. To share about my little classes and workshops, as well as to invite them into a larger vision. One where we all come together and learn from each other. Talk, share, love, grow in community? (LIke my mom did in the old days when the neighborhood moms met for coffee at each other’s houses?)
Where do you need to stand up and share some of your wisdom? Where are you allowing others to take your power? Your voice? Your vision? I’m taking a stand for me, my power and vision today.
As I connect to my vision for 2017 (and beyond) it seems too big, too much and that I’m not ready or worthy of it. Before my mind begins to doubt and close off possibilities, I move into a place of connecting to all that is and allow for the Higher Self to step in. She knows, in her own wise way, that this is my game. My modus operandi. My way of chickening out of the bigger game I’m here to play.
Where are you shying away from your great work? Who is supporting you in helping you remember what your heart desires? Do you have a strong knowing that you are part of a bigger plan? Do you get glimpses of what it is or is it clearly formed in your mind?
I’ll be sharing my side of this process. Join me. Ask the same questions of yourself and see where they might take you!