Doubt. That 2nd-guessing. Wondering how it could have played out differently. Reviewing the memory over and over and wishing it were different. And, the loud voice that keeps us from taking that next step forward, asking the big question, sharing what’s real.
And/or Confusion. She’s tricky this one. She loves to keep us in “we need more info” mode, or “I’m not sure what to do next” place or “I just wish I had clarity on what is the right decision for me now” space. Been there. A lot.
And, when paired together? They activate each other. Like Synergy, but gone awry. It can get ugly.
Both of these shadow selves are present for me this week. (and are pretty familiar each time I reach an edge, a growth phase or a new chapter of my life.) They can look different, but just like someone who changes their hair color, I can recognize them. The sneaky part is that they like to appear quietly, silently hijacking my momentum, shifting gears into low (or Park) until I notice that I’m not going anywhere! I’m stalled. And then it’s a bit late.
So, this week, my amazing business coach and I were talking about them. (I’ve actually named them Debbie Doubter and Connie Confusion) and my desire to fire them, release them, remove them or heal them. The suggestion I received was to “promote” them. What????
Promoting them to come from their Gift side, their flip persona of Inquiry and Illumination felt RIGHT. Perfect. And timely. Allowing them to still be valuable and necessary parts of me and to shine from their Gifts allows me to move into bringing them forward in my life in all ways, always.
The brilliant outcome of this promotion ceremony is the more cohesive way of recognizing when they are showing up. To bring forth their gifts in each interaction and then shine from within their highest spiritual teachings of Truth and Illumination! And how these already show up as guiding values and principles for me in my life and work? Divine guidance indeed!
So let’s dive in. These are real show-stoppers and I don’t know about you, but I’m ready to get on with the Show!
Years ago this book arrived in a gift bag with several other items from a friend who saw me better than I saw myself.
I devoured it.
Each word sang to me, woke me up, brought a resonance to my soul that has long been asleep.
And, it seems to call to me each time I need to wake up again.
Are you waking up? If so, it can be daunting. The lights seem so bright, the sounds too loud. The activity too busy. And, it makes us want to dive back into our covers and go back to sleep.
Yet, these times are calling us out of slumber. Whether courageous and wanting to risk, grow and change or not, we are unable to find the comfort in slumber we used to.
We have been preparing for this. We know that, on some level, we are ready. And, here is my invitation to you. Listen in and stay awake. We’ve been holding it together for too long.
The peace we feel when we drop the mask, veil, armor? Wow. It feels so luscious, free and … almost spiritual.
Why do we wear all of that protection?
Where did we learn to cover up? Fake it? Tell untruths? Pretend?
Radical acceptance, deep awareness and honest looking within has been my way of connecting. First WITHIN. Then without. I was taught and modeled the opposite.
Not sure where this message will go today as I unravel more about what it feels like to live an Authentic Life. What I do know is that as lonely and invisible as I used to feel along this journey has prepared me well to live in this space. My Space. My Truth.
What is your experience of living authentically? Where is it easy? Where do you feel like you want to hide or escape or pretend, numb out and not feel?